122. Traditions

everyone has a tradition. this year i got to hear about some of my friends christmas traditions. Nicky for instance, watches Santa Clause 1 every christmas eve with her fam jam in victoria. This to me was pretty cool, because i started thinking about how my family has some traditions too. at first i thought we didnt have any but then i realized that we do. Every Christmas eve we last min shop, and then we get ready to go to the 6 o'clock candlelight service at church. After that we get ready to eat dinner at my aunts house. We do that and wait till midnight creeps up on us and then ethan opens that first gift, cuz well he's the youngest. then after all the gifts are open we normally sleepover at my aunts. (this year we didnt) Anyways haha then christmas hits, we get up eat leftovers and go to the theatres. This year the theatres is coming to us. (ha!) Narnia for the win! Keep ur traditions alive people!

and i wanna hear some of them!

anyways haha i hope all of u guys had an awesome Christmas!

Merry Christmas!

121. the little things

"whatever im used to it".

ughh.

120. talent

so i finally got photoshop on my laptop. its been the best thing. anyways ha. look what i made!

119. background noise

Growing up means that u have to surround yourself with good influences. I think i have done a pretty decent job of it. I have the best friends in the whole wide world. I don't think i noticed it as much till today. I am surrounded by people i love and people i want to keep in touch with when i move on with my life. Right now i can honestly say that 3 of the most influential people in my life are Gabbi Nicky and Paul. they are 3 of my closest friends and honestly i cant imagine life without them. especially in this stage of my life.

Paul: They say all boys are lame and u cant be friends with them without wanting to date them or having them want to just "use" you, but you're different. I think that you are one of the only guys who has ever understood me without actually judging me for being me. yeah we joke around all the time and you say stupid stuff or you have a constant "twitch" going on, but i know you respect me just as much, if not more than i respect you. I feel as though if something were to happen or i just needed to tell someone something, that you would be there in a heartbeat ready to help out or even just to listen. even though it could be something stupid; which I'm super grateful for. I think that God put you in my life to show me what a "healthy" friendship with a dude is. (which BTW has been a big fail in my life until now) So anyways, what I'm trying to say here, is that i am blessed to have such an awesome dude to call a "best friend."

Gabbi: ahhhhh chica! I know i probably dont tell u this as often as i should but i think that you're life is constantly being blessed, even though u don't see it. There are so many things that i just look at in you and go "wow, that is sooo awesome!" like your ability to inspire thru your writing and art. like crap man i wish i could write like you, or even draw like u. but alas i have apparent different talents than you. But anyways God def gave u those talents to use for his purpose for you. so be his hands and be his feet and know that he is God. thank you for always being an awesome listener and for supporting me in all my foolish decisions. because frick man no one does. haha love u best friend!

Nicolaaaaa: i think i have hung out with you in the past few months more than i have hung out with yaisa. I feel as though u are someone who constantly needs to have perfection. and that's awesome! even with your little quirks here and there i have been able to see u really step up and look out for bunch of girls who were hopeless in a world that constantly brings them down. I feel as though even though sometimes u get impatient with them that u are actually a light in their lives. that they will seek a friend or a leader, and they will find you. you're def reliable and i love that about you. keep going full force with Jesus. You'll be doing some pretty amazing things in the years to come! love yaaa chica!

and alas the rest of my awesome friends. Life wouldn't be the same without all our different backgrounds or constant dealings with each other. Thank you all for being in my life and teaching me the random things u have taught me.

i love you all.

118. 20 questions

love this game.

118. what is my reality.

oh goodness today was an intense day for me. I went to work early as i often do because people called in sick, and then just chilled for a bit. did some work, went on my break, looked around, went back to work and then just hung out at work. Anyways to start my story im gonna heva to go a bit back.

Ok so Jessica is one of my co-workers. She always seems to have a new story of the day to tell me in which i listen intently and try my best to either support her or laugh with her. Today was no different, she was telling me a story and i could feel my self getting a little upset with the situation that happened in the story. Anyways a bit later in the day when there was no customers, jess and i got to talking about life. I asked her "do u ever think about your future?" and this got her thinking and she said "all the time! I just have to figure out what i want and go for it" at this i replied with "well what do u want?" and she said "i want a part time job and i want a family." then i asked what she wanted her job to be and she went on about something. then i told her that she should get her act together and go study in order to have a career. Then i stopped myself and started to take back all that stuff i said because i am not practicing what im preaching.

"get your act together" wow, that was one thing that really spoke to me and i was all like woah. i cant be telling others to get their act together if i myself cant even get my own act together. so this got me thinking, what do i want? and why? do i wanna work in retail my whole life? nope. Do i want to live my everydays the same as the day before? nope. do i want to do just the average? nope.

well then, now i have to actually "get my act together" if i really wanna see a change in my everyday life and my future.

117.childhood jam

this song was the best song ever when i was a kid. oh the memories.

116.champs club

this is apparently my status updates from this past year. or at least the most popular ones. its been swell

115. want? yes please!

this legit sweater from Forever21
these moustache mugs from www.etsy.com

a moustache tattoo

moustache ring from www.etsy.com

this vintage road map ring from www.etsy.com

i REALLY want this ring. www.etsy.com

alas this is just some of the random things i want. so legit.

114. i know everything u dont want me to

113. future

so today while while reading Gabbis blog, music started to play and alas, the song playing was the one that i plan on walking down the aisle to when i get married. It made me smile like crazy. just the thought of literally my five best friends walking in front of me to this song is just the best feeling ever. my wedding is probably so far in the future but im excited for it.

112. cars

caught in the middle of a conversation with my brother and edmond. (2 of my favorite people in the world btw) its crazy how one thing can easily connect 2 people. in this case its edmond and christians love for cars. Im sitting here passing messages from both of them to eachother since well they dont actually know eachother so it would be weird if they added eachother to facebook. but alas being caught in the middle is kinda funny. i have no idea whats being said cuz i dont speak car but its just funny that my bro and one of my best friends can just connect and chat with eachother like they've known eachother for years.

oh man, i hope my brother comes down here so he can
meet edmond and be influenced by him.
that would be sweet.

111.joyous

today i had a lovely day. finally a day off where i felt like i accomplished something. First off i woke up and had a chat with one of my favorites, Alley Baron. it was awesome to even talk to her. Its been a long time, so it was nice to hear her voice. Then i decided to actually get up and dressed and went down to the mall to drop off "the boy in the striped pajamas" for Briana cuz shes been wanting to watch it. So i did that then i went to go buy some glasses cuz they seemed to be the thing to make my outfit. Then i went to starbucks cuz i had a coffee date planned with Jenna Liesch. I was there early so i waited for a table and then came on my laptop to start doing some homework cuz im taking English 12 again. this lasted for approx. 5 min, then Jenna showed up. after we talked with Letitia on skype for a while and she filled us in on life. Then Jenna and I got to talking about life and all its wonders. haha it was grand. I have def decided what my plan is.

Leave to spain for 3 months and volunteer in a church and start a youth ministry there. How sweet would that be! That would be soooo cool! and thats what im praying for.

but anyways im glad that my day went like this. it was swell. i loved it. now to actually do some work. so so sad.

110. 2 days

oh brother 2 days till Dec 1st. when i will officially be ok with listening to christmas music. Not sure if im looking forward to it though haha. oh and christmas shopping is a bust. ughh too much to do so little time.

109. security

mall security is super bad. not in a good way.

takes the dudes like 1408721085301 years to get to the location they are needed. epic fail.

108. Shaping our Destiny

so since i haven't blogged in ages, i figure i would blog now about well what seems to be important in my life. So a couple of weeks ago we had "shaping our destiny" which is where we as an individual writes down the things we are believing for in the next year. then we give and offering and pray as a group or with our families. This year i got to pray with my family and Monica who is like a sister to me, and then i had the amazing chance of praying with my best friends Gabbi and Nicky. There has def been a lot of things on our hearts to pray for so we went up and took forever. it was an amazing time though to hear what they were believeing for and even to pray for them individually was awesome. but anyways this card should be intimate and all, but im gonna share a few of mine with you.

and these are pretty much the things that mean the most to me.

1. Mike Kraan- that he is continuing to heal to his full capacity and that he is the same as before with an even bigger longing to find what God has in store for him
2.finances- I have big dreams and i need this to achieve them.
3.Chanel and Letitia- purpose for why they are where they are and jobs that continue to pay for their needs and vision.
4.family- TO BE RESTORED

there are way more but these ones are just some of the ones i want to share.

but anyways, what are u believing for in the next year? nothing it too small for God. Have faith, and put the work in.

"When we do all we can, he does what we cant."

-John Burns

107. awe inspiring.

we your people will offer up our lives

we will walk in your ways

we your people will sing of your great love

we will shower in your grace

we will fall in love with you

-Steve John

106. gela skins

my new gela skin came for my blackberry today and it is awesome!

i love it. luggage on the back and airplane on the front.

105.java jazz.

ok so today we went to Java Jazz for a cause which was awesome. Joryli, Mia, Liz (chub), and Ashley sang some sweet songs, all for Watoto, which was sweet!! Loved every second of it. Here are a few pics of the night.

My other half. well of Paul squared.

this is pure friendship

Joryli doing what she does best

me by the end of the night

awkward smiles ftw




Gabster

104. thankful

while watching eat.pray.love, there was a part where it was thanksgiving and they were going around the table saying what they were greatful for, so since thanksgiving passed and i didnt have the courage to write or say what i am/was thankful for, here i go.

First and foremost, i am thankful for a Relationship with a God who loves me more than anyone ever could or will.

I am thankful for:

-a family who has been there for me since the beginning

-friends who understand me

-Guy friends who have been like brothers to me and have watched over me like i was their little sister

-sam and silas who have taught me that Jesus is so much bigger than anything

-Jesse and Sylvain who look up to me even though i look up to them too

-Brandi-Lee and Jenna who have guided me thru so much

-a job that continues to pay my bills

-A church who has been my "safe haven"

-the ability to have desires and dreams in my heart

Letitia: who has been my rock in some of my hardest times. Continuing to give me advice and love on me no matter what.

Nicky: who has taught me that life is too short to not fit in all you can and that i have to work hard to get what i want.

Gabbi: who has been a sister to me and someone i can tell anything to without having the feeling of being judged.

Chanel: who has been there to help with all my travelling plans whether it be just giving me some info or sites, and believeing that i can make it to Spain.

thank you Jesus for all im thankful for.

"be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you dont have, you will never, ever have enough."

103. eternity.

eternity is something to look forward to.

102. here we go

so today was a better day, i got up while sleeping in for a few more hours and then went to work with some of my favorite people in the whole entire world. then i bought some stuff at off the wall. (who wouldnt with their additional 40% off) anyways uhh then i shopped a bit saw my grandma and rember and yeah went home to do nothing less of well nothing at all.

But anyways i was trying to make a video to send to my biffles, and i thought why not just write about it. I mean who even reads this business haha

so here i go.

My plan for my life is this. (in no particular order)

1. move to spain in the next year or so

2. get involved in a church that needs the help

3. start preaching up a storm

4.come back and share what ive learned

5.go back to spain, with a job and all my finances

6.get married in the next like 5 years haha

7. inspire and be inspired

but then i got to thinking, i want to go to spain but is that where GOD wants me to go? is that where i am needed? for all i know i could be needed in madagascar which btw is highly dangerous but thats besides the point. I want to do all i can for God, and this is gonna start with letting everything go and going where he leads me.

God:1 Paula:0

101. bomb diggity;

alrighty so i have been so focused on updating my video blog (adventureswithpaula.blogspot.com) that i totally havent been writing on this one so here i go.

like i said in my previous blog, i have been feeling "distant" from God, cuz well i feel like i never have the time to fit him into my schedule. But then again all the time i spend talking to someone on skype or watching tv, could be time i spend with the creator of the universe! and i know i sound pathetic when i say this, but sometimes i dont think i can "handle" time with God.


Sometimes I feel as though because i have been so distant that maybe he doesnt care for me as much as he did, and then i come to the realization that i am being stupid. If he didnt love me then he wouldnt want me to be seeking him and honestly thats what i should be doing. He wouldnt be on my mind if he meant nothing to me and vice versa. I think that the whole realization of the fact that there is someone far greater than any of my expectations out there is surreal, and yet i have to believe it because thats how my life and thought process work.

To even doubt this stuff is ridicoulous because i know for a fact that he is real. He has done so many things in my life that i believe that he is 100% there always. My friend Mike would probably not be here on this earth right now if it wasnt for Jesus. And that to me is a complete miracle. But anyways, i guess thats my rant for the day.

Thank you Jesus for helping me realize that im being an idiot.

100. thanks sam

about 10 min ago i discovered something new. My friend Sam's tumblr. this tumblr is filled with encouragement and challenges that i think i have been needing in the past few weeks.

these past few weeks, have been so busy for me, and i haven't had time for anything. Ive been thinking about work and why i hate it, and school and what i wanna do with my life, and i never just sit down and think "God, whats ur plan for me?" Recently i haven't even had that time with God, and im just so frustrated with myself. Yeah i go to church and all but its always about others and never about myself. My friends Dan posted something today about what you put before God and i got to thinking that everything in my life is before God at this point. And im just done with feeling frustrated about where i am in my walk with God. But anyways, reading Sam's blog brought a lot of realization to my life. Sam to me is someone i look up to not just cuz im short, but because he is an amazing follower of Jesus, and he is an example like no other. Typically when i think of someone i think "yeah they're cool" but i never think "wow they are such an encouragement." I feel as though this "blog" filled with these words was brought to my attention, because i needed to hear it.

its such an encouragement to have someone who is able to inspire you without actually knowing that they are inspiring you and let alone encouraging you.

so therefore, i wanna say Thank you Sam for showing me that my God is bigger than anything and that i should seek more of him and less of me.

runaway train;

life is too short to not be able to tell people how you feel, and way too short to hide your feelings. Trevor Lapierre died so young, and even though i personally didnt know him, i know he impacted my sister's life a lot. RIP Trevor.

i laughed so hard.

no regrets;just love.

so lately i have been thinking about life in general and all that jazz and i have come to this conclusion.

Life is too short to be wasting time doing things i dont wanna do. I want a job that i love, i want my friends and family to be happy and healthy, i want a relationship that lasts a long time, and i want my life to show others that

Jesus is real.

19 years ago.... (forgot to post this)

BAM!

i was brought into this world.

Today is my birthday.

And i cant seem to comprehend how i have become 19 already.

I feel ancient. But then again there are some peeps in this world who are like 99.

Im gonna enjoy my day with the people i love most in this world.

so, hello 19; lets have a good year.

Paul Squared's sixth sense.

And i think im not awkward.

Me- "So Paul, you know that one How i met your mother episode? wait nvm."

Paul-" No now u have to tell me"

Me-" fine u know the episode when Barney and Robyn are avoiding the talk."

AWKWARD SILENCE

Me- "Anyways....."

man i love awkward moments.

now we'll actually have something to fight about.

you're going down LA + CH

Mike Kraan update

my friends are the best;

So since i havent blogged in a while i figure i'd blog right now. Im tallking about how awesome my friends truly are. So this totally consists of the core group consisting of Letitia Chanel Gabbi and Nicky. Then we have the awesome guys known as Mike Kraan, Nathan Collins and newly added Paul Biason[my other half.]. I'd write about the girlies but i'd probs start crying SO i'll talk about the guys this time.

Nathan Collins

Oh Nathan. Im so glad we've gotten to know eachother recently. You are one rad dude. I mean i love that ur funny and all that jazz but what i truly love about you is the fact that you are so passionate about the things you love and u dont stop pursuing them. And even in our friendships, you always stay true to your friends and love on them even if you dont agree with them. You are swell and im glad that you are my friend. You have def made my life that much better. =]

Mike Kraan.

Oh mike. You are one of the most important people in my life. So glad that you have been there to walk thru the good and bad with me for this short time. I know we joke around all the time but im glad that u can tell when something is bugging me and your serious when you need to be. I can def open up to you about stuff and you wont judge me. best case scenario is that u've walked or are walking thru the same things i am at the time. Def praying that you get better ASAP cuz well theres a lot i need to tell you. def love ya though haha.

Paul Biason.

PAULITO![ and no thats not ur name in spanish.] hahah im actually SOOO grateful that u have come into my life. You are such an amazing dude. I know i dont tell you this to your face, but i think its easier to be cheesy when you type stuff out. No but really im glad we have that sixth sense thing going on that when we look at eachother, we can tell what the other one is thinking. its super useful haha Even when we joke around and u throw skittles at me haha or your perfect timing when i need a hug. geez Paul ur so useful lol No but really even in these few weeks of just getting to know ya, we've become paul squared and all that awesomeness haha. Dude you are swell. " How about now?"

love you boys, and i am glad ur in my life;

I am super blessed to have u guys.

another curveball to go against.

Mike Kraan

Im praying that you recover fully and

im waiting for the days when we chill like nothing ever happened.

I love you.

God is Awesome

I witnessed the best thing of my life today.

So Gabbi Paul Nicky and i went to planet Java after church to just chill, and to see if Chanel was working. So we get there and Chanel IS working. So paul and gab get to playing pool while nicky studies so i sit down with chanel and start chatting about life. She then tells me that she recently had a dream that someone gave her $500 to go to argentina which is all she needed. So then we finish that convo and move onto the next. THEN a little bit later her aunt and uncle come into this awesome coffee house and order 2 lattes. Then chanel says "that will be $6.80 please" then the best thing i have ever witnessed happens. Her aunt and uncle hand over $500 and say keep the change. At this point im shocked and clearly so is Chanel. She starts crying and jumping up and down and hugging and it was just a moment filled with so much emotions that i am glad i witnessed. The good part is now chanel is OFFICIALLY moving to Argentina. the sad part is that chanel is OFFICIALLY moving to Argentina. Oh well. This was really a GOD moment. SO blessed to have been there to witness this.

fav movies.

woah arguing with Paul has brought me to this conclusion. I win at favorite movies and Paul's movie choices suck =]

best movies ever: the rush hour trilogy;the breakfast club;ferris buellers day off

crappiest movies: starwars and the lord of the rings

sometimes.

sometimes this is all i need to hear.

mike and nate.

this made me laugh so hard. i totally thought of mike and nate when i found this on
one of my fav websites. they look so much like these dudes. haha

cookies

The beautiful Chanel Howe

made me cookies to make me feel better.

Oh how i love thee =]

naturally 7

Best band ever.

concerts i want to see.

sept 27th-matt and kim

Oct 24th-she& him

Nov12 &13- wintersleep

NO NO NO this guy changed my life.

love this

Oh her eyes, her eyes

Make the stars look like they're not shining

Her hair, her hair

Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know

When I compliment her

She wont believe me

And its so, its so

Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay

I say

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips

I could kiss them all day if she'd let me

Her laugh, her laugh

She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know

Id never ask you to change

If perfect is what you're searching for

Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking

If you look okay

You know I say

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

The way you are

The way you are

Girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

woah

woah this is how i feel sometimes.

yo

i want what she's having.

mmmkkk thanks.

GT.

Gabriela Tarves;

i feel as though we have become great friends in such little time. I mean you seem more like a sister to me than anything else. In such little time we have been thru so much. From just having fun to actually sitting down and having heartfelt chats. I feel as though you are just open to listen to everything i say whether it be stupid or not. And i am so grateful for that. Dude, im so glad i can have chats with you about who i like or what my plans are and you support me with everything. Oh, I'm also really glad that i can introduce you to any one of my friends and you can just feel so comfortable with them and not awkward which is such a great trait to have. Thanks for all the advice you have given me and for actually listening to my issues.

I ♥ you.

sometimes i miss your face.

Letitia;

typical us cake fights.

partying on the bus cuz we lost hector. fail.

aww party at nathans.

ok all the time i miss your face! Just thought you would like to know that.

I love you.

stargazing stargazing stargazing stargazing stargazing stargazing stargazing stargazing stargazing stargazing stargazing stargazing

happy birthday Davin!

Happy 19th best buddsssss!

[you'll always be one of my favorites!]

shooting star

I saw one and made a wish.

believe me nicky they are real.

tattoo.

i want a tattoo that says this:

Mi Corazon Es Tuyo Por Siempre

You think things thru! [aug 5th 2010]

Today I had a wonderful coffee date with the beautiful Gabbi. We reminisced about kids camp and all out wonderful adventures. Then we talked about how different kids camp was in my life this year. I mean at first i was all for it but during the whole thing my thoughts changed. Dont get me wrong, I loved the whole experience but at times i think that my thoughts kept leading to the same question. "what am i doing here?" Anyways i later told Gabbi that i figured out the whole reason i was there.

On testimony night, which was the thursday night after consoling some of the kids, one of my best friends asked if they could have a chat with me. At this point i had no idea what was going to be said, so we left to the leaders room and just talked. we talked for what felt like hours but the words that this friend said were just so heart breaking. To have this person trust me with what they were and are going through was just so mind boggling. I think this experience changed my whole life. Needless to say this person is one of my favorite people and im glad that i am accountable for them. After that whole scenario i figured out my purpose during Kids Camp. I knew that God put me there on purpose to talk to this person and to be accountable for this friend. This got me asking Gabbi this question "Why do you think i can be trusted?" She then said that i was real when i gave people advice and that i actually take the time to listen to people and think about what im going to say before i say it.

Then we started talking about life in general and i discussed my future plans with her. I think that maybe my life is at this point because im at an age where i can handle what happened in my life and what is going to happen in my life. Im so blessed to have these awesome people in my life.

Later after that Gabs and i got some sweet friendship bracelets. Today was a grand day.