110. 2 days

oh brother 2 days till Dec 1st. when i will officially be ok with listening to christmas music. Not sure if im looking forward to it though haha. oh and christmas shopping is a bust. ughh too much to do so little time.

109. security

mall security is super bad. not in a good way.

takes the dudes like 1408721085301 years to get to the location they are needed. epic fail.

108. Shaping our Destiny

so since i haven't blogged in ages, i figure i would blog now about well what seems to be important in my life. So a couple of weeks ago we had "shaping our destiny" which is where we as an individual writes down the things we are believing for in the next year. then we give and offering and pray as a group or with our families. This year i got to pray with my family and Monica who is like a sister to me, and then i had the amazing chance of praying with my best friends Gabbi and Nicky. There has def been a lot of things on our hearts to pray for so we went up and took forever. it was an amazing time though to hear what they were believeing for and even to pray for them individually was awesome. but anyways this card should be intimate and all, but im gonna share a few of mine with you.

and these are pretty much the things that mean the most to me.

1. Mike Kraan- that he is continuing to heal to his full capacity and that he is the same as before with an even bigger longing to find what God has in store for him
2.finances- I have big dreams and i need this to achieve them.
3.Chanel and Letitia- purpose for why they are where they are and jobs that continue to pay for their needs and vision.
4.family- TO BE RESTORED

there are way more but these ones are just some of the ones i want to share.

but anyways, what are u believing for in the next year? nothing it too small for God. Have faith, and put the work in.

"When we do all we can, he does what we cant."

-John Burns

107. awe inspiring.

we your people will offer up our lives

we will walk in your ways

we your people will sing of your great love

we will shower in your grace

we will fall in love with you

-Steve John

106. gela skins

my new gela skin came for my blackberry today and it is awesome!

i love it. luggage on the back and airplane on the front.

105.java jazz.

ok so today we went to Java Jazz for a cause which was awesome. Joryli, Mia, Liz (chub), and Ashley sang some sweet songs, all for Watoto, which was sweet!! Loved every second of it. Here are a few pics of the night.

My other half. well of Paul squared.

this is pure friendship

Joryli doing what she does best

me by the end of the night

awkward smiles ftw




Gabster

104. thankful

while watching eat.pray.love, there was a part where it was thanksgiving and they were going around the table saying what they were greatful for, so since thanksgiving passed and i didnt have the courage to write or say what i am/was thankful for, here i go.

First and foremost, i am thankful for a Relationship with a God who loves me more than anyone ever could or will.

I am thankful for:

-a family who has been there for me since the beginning

-friends who understand me

-Guy friends who have been like brothers to me and have watched over me like i was their little sister

-sam and silas who have taught me that Jesus is so much bigger than anything

-Jesse and Sylvain who look up to me even though i look up to them too

-Brandi-Lee and Jenna who have guided me thru so much

-a job that continues to pay my bills

-A church who has been my "safe haven"

-the ability to have desires and dreams in my heart

Letitia: who has been my rock in some of my hardest times. Continuing to give me advice and love on me no matter what.

Nicky: who has taught me that life is too short to not fit in all you can and that i have to work hard to get what i want.

Gabbi: who has been a sister to me and someone i can tell anything to without having the feeling of being judged.

Chanel: who has been there to help with all my travelling plans whether it be just giving me some info or sites, and believeing that i can make it to Spain.

thank you Jesus for all im thankful for.

"be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you dont have, you will never, ever have enough."

103. eternity.

eternity is something to look forward to.

102. here we go

so today was a better day, i got up while sleeping in for a few more hours and then went to work with some of my favorite people in the whole entire world. then i bought some stuff at off the wall. (who wouldnt with their additional 40% off) anyways uhh then i shopped a bit saw my grandma and rember and yeah went home to do nothing less of well nothing at all.

But anyways i was trying to make a video to send to my biffles, and i thought why not just write about it. I mean who even reads this business haha

so here i go.

My plan for my life is this. (in no particular order)

1. move to spain in the next year or so

2. get involved in a church that needs the help

3. start preaching up a storm

4.come back and share what ive learned

5.go back to spain, with a job and all my finances

6.get married in the next like 5 years haha

7. inspire and be inspired

but then i got to thinking, i want to go to spain but is that where GOD wants me to go? is that where i am needed? for all i know i could be needed in madagascar which btw is highly dangerous but thats besides the point. I want to do all i can for God, and this is gonna start with letting everything go and going where he leads me.

God:1 Paula:0

101. bomb diggity;

alrighty so i have been so focused on updating my video blog (adventureswithpaula.blogspot.com) that i totally havent been writing on this one so here i go.

like i said in my previous blog, i have been feeling "distant" from God, cuz well i feel like i never have the time to fit him into my schedule. But then again all the time i spend talking to someone on skype or watching tv, could be time i spend with the creator of the universe! and i know i sound pathetic when i say this, but sometimes i dont think i can "handle" time with God.


Sometimes I feel as though because i have been so distant that maybe he doesnt care for me as much as he did, and then i come to the realization that i am being stupid. If he didnt love me then he wouldnt want me to be seeking him and honestly thats what i should be doing. He wouldnt be on my mind if he meant nothing to me and vice versa. I think that the whole realization of the fact that there is someone far greater than any of my expectations out there is surreal, and yet i have to believe it because thats how my life and thought process work.

To even doubt this stuff is ridicoulous because i know for a fact that he is real. He has done so many things in my life that i believe that he is 100% there always. My friend Mike would probably not be here on this earth right now if it wasnt for Jesus. And that to me is a complete miracle. But anyways, i guess thats my rant for the day.

Thank you Jesus for helping me realize that im being an idiot.

100. thanks sam

about 10 min ago i discovered something new. My friend Sam's tumblr. this tumblr is filled with encouragement and challenges that i think i have been needing in the past few weeks.

these past few weeks, have been so busy for me, and i haven't had time for anything. Ive been thinking about work and why i hate it, and school and what i wanna do with my life, and i never just sit down and think "God, whats ur plan for me?" Recently i haven't even had that time with God, and im just so frustrated with myself. Yeah i go to church and all but its always about others and never about myself. My friends Dan posted something today about what you put before God and i got to thinking that everything in my life is before God at this point. And im just done with feeling frustrated about where i am in my walk with God. But anyways, reading Sam's blog brought a lot of realization to my life. Sam to me is someone i look up to not just cuz im short, but because he is an amazing follower of Jesus, and he is an example like no other. Typically when i think of someone i think "yeah they're cool" but i never think "wow they are such an encouragement." I feel as though this "blog" filled with these words was brought to my attention, because i needed to hear it.

its such an encouragement to have someone who is able to inspire you without actually knowing that they are inspiring you and let alone encouraging you.

so therefore, i wanna say Thank you Sam for showing me that my God is bigger than anything and that i should seek more of him and less of me.