134. and though the darkness hides me

my fam jam

nb.pb.gt.pb

so ive been thinking a lot lately cuz well, ive really had a lot of time on my hands. and alas i have come to the conclusion that the decision of leaving is gonna be the hardest decision of my life. last night while looking thru the pics of Roms bowling party and updating my pic, i totally realized that this is gonna suck. as soon as i wrote down "my fam jam" under a pic of me paul nicky and gabs i started to cry a little. not weep but cry. i all of a sudden realized that yes, apart from my own family, that i would have to leave behind the people i do life with. That even though its something i need to do, that its gonna suck. Now i know how Letitia and Chanel felt having to leave us behind. But i know that Gods plans for my life are bigger than my plans for my life. I may not even end up going. or i may go and chill for a bit, or maybe i will go and full on move there. praying praying praying. Oh and i would appreciate prayer for a clear mind. that would be awesome!

xoxo.

133. i try.

inspired by paul's blog.

132.our god is greater.

so i havent really updated this cuz well i was waiting for rember to put up pics. But alas, he has put them up so here we go! So as some of u may know, Our awesome ROM has to go back to the phillipines (pretty sure thats where) cuz of his visa. Its been an amazing adventure having him here and i know that our God's plans for his life are amazing and purposeful. But alas. we are losing one of our favorite people in the world!. ON the bright side, at least we will be seeing him soon!

anyways we went bowling after 5 night to celebrate this awesome dude and here are a few pics!

Man i love the ppl i do life with!

131.preach it brotha

130. legends

i have the awesome privilege of catching up with 2 pretty awesome dudes right now at like 130 am. pretty much i have known Jon and Brandon since grade 8, and they are swell. it feels pretty good to talk to them cuz ever since i left regent in grade 10, we all went our seperate ways and havent had any awesome talks since then.

Brandon: right now he's in australia partying it up with YWAM. and honestly im so excited for him! he's def a go getter and i love that about him! i mean if u ask him to do something he will go for it full force not thinking about what others think about him in that moment and that is such a good quality to have and keep having. Gods gonna do awesome things in his life and im excited for these 6 months to pass by so i can hear all his awesome stories!

Jon: alrighty so he just got back from mexico. went there to i guess relax and party it up. haha. but no seriously he was laid off in the winter then went to mexico and is now currently jobless, but he cant be anymore content with his life right now. like yeahh he has no income but it doesnt phase him one bit. when he was telling me this he even threw in that he is so happy because of the way he views his life.

"i try to look at my life just as one long day with naps in it lol ever since i looked at it like that feels like its never a routine and every days different."

which in all seriousness if u think about it, it makes perfect sense because then u have less bad days and have more great days. LOVE IT.

like honestly to be so content with ur life while having no income and nothing to do is like crazy to me! but i really love the was that Jon never lets anything bring him down. so proud of that kid!

anyways just thought i'd share this with u guys.

129. struggles

we all go thru something hard in our life.

God wouldn't put us in a situation if he knew we couldnt handle it.

think about a struggle u've ever faced, and think about where u are now. u made it past it right? and u learned something from it right?

BAM.

thats God for ya.

128. Happy Birthday isnt enough.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

to one of the most beautiful, talented, awesome, caring, and loveable friends in the world. So glad God put u in my life! u are truly an inspiration and i am so glad ur my best friend! i love you loads!

xoxo.