189.composure

so my last blog was a little rant with not that much detail in it at all, and thats the way i wanna keep it. Anyways i always go thru stuff and learn something from it. This time it was something that i was used to but shouldnt be used to. Last time i lost a friend because of this. I CANT handle having that happen to me again. ever. soo theres gonna be a little chat where i lay everything on the table. im actually looking forward to it. it shall be so good to get this stuff off my chest.