137. it feels good to get it off my chest

"If God didnt think you could handle
it, he wouldnt have put you thru it."

136. tough pill to swallow.

alright SO i dont know if i mentioned this before, but my keyholder gave her 2 weeks again and BAM opportunity arose again. So i stepped it up a bit and thought maybe i would get it. Anyways,
today while at work my best friend from work texts me and was all like "heyy bbm me when ur done work i gotta talk to u". At this point im chillin being like oh man somethng is wrong cuz she seems to have a lot of issues going on. Anyways i tell my MOD that she needs to talk to me so she told me to call her. and this is what happened.

she was like " i need to be really serious with you" i was like uhh ok and then this is what she said "Today Lori (my manager) called me and offered me the keyholder position once steph leaves and i wanted to know if u were ok with that." at this point my heart dropped. shes been working there for approx 6 months. Ive been working there for a year and a half. anyways, she was like i know u wanted it too so i was gonna ask if it was ok if i could take it.
i was choked but at the same time i was pissed and also kinda ok with it. I told her that if Lori wanted to give me keys she would have offered me the position. but she didnt so i told krystal to go ahead and take it cuz its a good opportunity for her.

anyways. needless to say this is the crappiest news ive heard in a while and im kinda sad about it. But i have to remind myself that Gods plans are greater than my own. I could all of a sudden leave somewhere tomorrow for all i know.

and theres my rant for the day.

135. honor.

so far.

daniel christiaens
liz bowman.

callum stewart

Eliza Biason

Rom Saplaco

134. and though the darkness hides me

my fam jam

nb.pb.gt.pb

so ive been thinking a lot lately cuz well, ive really had a lot of time on my hands. and alas i have come to the conclusion that the decision of leaving is gonna be the hardest decision of my life. last night while looking thru the pics of Roms bowling party and updating my pic, i totally realized that this is gonna suck. as soon as i wrote down "my fam jam" under a pic of me paul nicky and gabs i started to cry a little. not weep but cry. i all of a sudden realized that yes, apart from my own family, that i would have to leave behind the people i do life with. That even though its something i need to do, that its gonna suck. Now i know how Letitia and Chanel felt having to leave us behind. But i know that Gods plans for my life are bigger than my plans for my life. I may not even end up going. or i may go and chill for a bit, or maybe i will go and full on move there. praying praying praying. Oh and i would appreciate prayer for a clear mind. that would be awesome!

xoxo.

133. i try.

inspired by paul's blog.

132.our god is greater.

so i havent really updated this cuz well i was waiting for rember to put up pics. But alas, he has put them up so here we go! So as some of u may know, Our awesome ROM has to go back to the phillipines (pretty sure thats where) cuz of his visa. Its been an amazing adventure having him here and i know that our God's plans for his life are amazing and purposeful. But alas. we are losing one of our favorite people in the world!. ON the bright side, at least we will be seeing him soon!

anyways we went bowling after 5 night to celebrate this awesome dude and here are a few pics!

Man i love the ppl i do life with!

131.preach it brotha