144. turning into dust

so pretty much i have been MIA for the following reasons.

• i have to much on my plate
• im always doing something
• never have anything to blog about. so so sad

anyways i have been thinking lots about life group and what i wanna get out of it, and what i want the girls to get out of itm and im excited for whats to come. I mean yeah ive done this before, but im just so pumped to see the things that God has in store for us as a life group.

there are really no words to describe my excitement. =]

143. everytime

You'll only get it if you know me well.

so, we hang out, and chill, laugh,sit together, bug, text and talk, and most importantly we enjoy doing all those things. oh life, why do u have to be so complicated?!let it happen already. gosh.

142.Exciting!

I am so flippin excited!

141. prized possession

140. wouldnt change it for the world

Yesterday, being Sunday and all, it had to be one of my busiest days. I had to oversee the childrens department at church for both services . Obviously when i do it something always goes wrong, so i had an interesting time haha. But alas church ended and i got the awesome chance to chill with my second family,which is Lisbeth Gabbi and Alex. Oh and Nicky was there too. Anyways we went to one of my favorite places ever, Langley. I cant even begin to describe to you why i love it so much. Lets just say it has culture and all that jazz. its great! anyways im getting off topic haha. We then went to a mexican/salvadorian restaurant and ate pupusas (sp?) It was awesome. I got to chill and talk in spanish haha which i rarely do cuz i feel like i have a stupid accent when i talk but alas, whatever. It was fun! Then we went to honestly one of my favorite stores in the whole wide world. VALUE VILLAGE. it should be called something like "BEST CLOTHING STORE EVER" Its awesome in there i never get to go cuz well, my mom hates it in there and cant even stand to be in there for more than 5 min. But alas my whole goal was to find an ugly sweater to wear to Leanna's ugly sweater party, and i can straight up say that i tried on at least 12 ugly sweaters. We had cart fulls of clothing from there. Another persons trash is someone else's treasure. right? Anyways i had found some beauties including 3 sweaters, 2 of them that i would wear all the time and 1 hidious one that i got for the party. I also scored some sweet shoes and a mans plaid shirt. This made me smile. I think i was like a kid on christmas. It was amazing to have all these things in my possesion. I love clothing and lately ive been getting a lot into fashion. I feel as though the floor is my closet cuz all the clothes i have wont fit in my dresser or closet. Its a fail. But anyways, after that awesome adventure i went back to church for well the highlight of my week. Wildfire. I get so excited about it everytime cuz every weeks adventure is different. sometimes i see people i havent seen in years, or at least ages. But anyways, I went there and it was pretty interesting. an old man walked in and attempted to chill with the youth. Luckily Dan was there to tell this dude that it wasnt allowed and he had to leave. It quite interesting. Then i got to see Nathan finally come to wildfire haha. It was great. I also got to hang with a world changer, Edmond, and alas like always he made fun of me. Its always an adventure with that kid. Then Koby preached a legit message and it was funny to see him so pumped on life but it was awesome. I could keep going but i should get to the hilarious part. OK so me nicks and leanna bussed it to gabs cuz we had stuff that we left in their car, and got a ride home with someone whose pretty sweet. Alas, we dropped off nicks and went to drop off Leanna and well we had a pretty sweet adventure. This fella (we are gonna call him "charles") decided to let me steer the car and he ran to the back of the car while it was still moving and then ran back to the front all in about 10 seconds. half way thru this, he ran over his own foot. it was sooooo funny. I laughed for a while after he dropped me off. It was pretty much the best highlight of our lives.

I'll put up pics later.

139. solid night

So friday night we had what i would like to call one of many first ladies nights out. This was a special occasion cuz well Leanna turned 20 and we hadnt done anything for her. So we were planning on going downtown but then i chickened out since well i mean its late and it was night time and well we'd be skytraining and bussing pretty late. Anyways, Gabbi Nicky Yaisa Leanna and I all went to Earls where we got to sit in the "lounge" and had dinner drinks and dessert. While they were talking i noticed that i didnt say anything because i thought of the fact that for once, all of us were legal and came to the realization that i had finally "grown up." To me it felt like it was just yesterday when i was a kid playing around and climbing trees and thinking boys had cooties but i still secretly wanted to hold hands with one, and building sweet forts wanting to stay there forever because it was magical. But alas, here we are me gabs nicks leanna all turning 20 this year and Yaisa turning 21. Man does time fly fast. I wonder what the next few years will bring us.

138.scrabble.

so

i

decided

to

write

6o

texts

to

leanna

cuz

she

wouldnt

start

up

a

blog

and

i

played

scrabble

all

day

it

was

epic!

done.

137. it feels good to get it off my chest

"If God didnt think you could handle
it, he wouldnt have put you thru it."

136. tough pill to swallow.

alright SO i dont know if i mentioned this before, but my keyholder gave her 2 weeks again and BAM opportunity arose again. So i stepped it up a bit and thought maybe i would get it. Anyways,
today while at work my best friend from work texts me and was all like "heyy bbm me when ur done work i gotta talk to u". At this point im chillin being like oh man somethng is wrong cuz she seems to have a lot of issues going on. Anyways i tell my MOD that she needs to talk to me so she told me to call her. and this is what happened.

she was like " i need to be really serious with you" i was like uhh ok and then this is what she said "Today Lori (my manager) called me and offered me the keyholder position once steph leaves and i wanted to know if u were ok with that." at this point my heart dropped. shes been working there for approx 6 months. Ive been working there for a year and a half. anyways, she was like i know u wanted it too so i was gonna ask if it was ok if i could take it.
i was choked but at the same time i was pissed and also kinda ok with it. I told her that if Lori wanted to give me keys she would have offered me the position. but she didnt so i told krystal to go ahead and take it cuz its a good opportunity for her.

anyways. needless to say this is the crappiest news ive heard in a while and im kinda sad about it. But i have to remind myself that Gods plans are greater than my own. I could all of a sudden leave somewhere tomorrow for all i know.

and theres my rant for the day.

135. honor.

so far.

daniel christiaens
liz bowman.

callum stewart

Eliza Biason

Rom Saplaco

134. and though the darkness hides me

my fam jam

nb.pb.gt.pb

so ive been thinking a lot lately cuz well, ive really had a lot of time on my hands. and alas i have come to the conclusion that the decision of leaving is gonna be the hardest decision of my life. last night while looking thru the pics of Roms bowling party and updating my pic, i totally realized that this is gonna suck. as soon as i wrote down "my fam jam" under a pic of me paul nicky and gabs i started to cry a little. not weep but cry. i all of a sudden realized that yes, apart from my own family, that i would have to leave behind the people i do life with. That even though its something i need to do, that its gonna suck. Now i know how Letitia and Chanel felt having to leave us behind. But i know that Gods plans for my life are bigger than my plans for my life. I may not even end up going. or i may go and chill for a bit, or maybe i will go and full on move there. praying praying praying. Oh and i would appreciate prayer for a clear mind. that would be awesome!

xoxo.

133. i try.

inspired by paul's blog.

132.our god is greater.

so i havent really updated this cuz well i was waiting for rember to put up pics. But alas, he has put them up so here we go! So as some of u may know, Our awesome ROM has to go back to the phillipines (pretty sure thats where) cuz of his visa. Its been an amazing adventure having him here and i know that our God's plans for his life are amazing and purposeful. But alas. we are losing one of our favorite people in the world!. ON the bright side, at least we will be seeing him soon!

anyways we went bowling after 5 night to celebrate this awesome dude and here are a few pics!

Man i love the ppl i do life with!

131.preach it brotha

130. legends

i have the awesome privilege of catching up with 2 pretty awesome dudes right now at like 130 am. pretty much i have known Jon and Brandon since grade 8, and they are swell. it feels pretty good to talk to them cuz ever since i left regent in grade 10, we all went our seperate ways and havent had any awesome talks since then.

Brandon: right now he's in australia partying it up with YWAM. and honestly im so excited for him! he's def a go getter and i love that about him! i mean if u ask him to do something he will go for it full force not thinking about what others think about him in that moment and that is such a good quality to have and keep having. Gods gonna do awesome things in his life and im excited for these 6 months to pass by so i can hear all his awesome stories!

Jon: alrighty so he just got back from mexico. went there to i guess relax and party it up. haha. but no seriously he was laid off in the winter then went to mexico and is now currently jobless, but he cant be anymore content with his life right now. like yeahh he has no income but it doesnt phase him one bit. when he was telling me this he even threw in that he is so happy because of the way he views his life.

"i try to look at my life just as one long day with naps in it lol ever since i looked at it like that feels like its never a routine and every days different."

which in all seriousness if u think about it, it makes perfect sense because then u have less bad days and have more great days. LOVE IT.

like honestly to be so content with ur life while having no income and nothing to do is like crazy to me! but i really love the was that Jon never lets anything bring him down. so proud of that kid!

anyways just thought i'd share this with u guys.

129. struggles

we all go thru something hard in our life.

God wouldn't put us in a situation if he knew we couldnt handle it.

think about a struggle u've ever faced, and think about where u are now. u made it past it right? and u learned something from it right?

BAM.

thats God for ya.

128. Happy Birthday isnt enough.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

to one of the most beautiful, talented, awesome, caring, and loveable friends in the world. So glad God put u in my life! u are truly an inspiration and i am so glad ur my best friend! i love you loads!

xoxo.

127. balloons

today a kid walked into my store and had 2 balloons with him. He was so happy just to be holding these 2 balloons and i laughed a little.

This got me thinking, why are kids so fascinated with balloons? is it the shape? or maybe the fact that anyone can blow one up themselves?

or maybe its the many colors. like think about it there are so many colors out there to choose from! Or maybe its because when u add helium to the balloon it floats and when you let it go outside you can watch it float away until you cant see it anymore. this is kinda like how we should be with our love for God. That even though he's not visible to us (like the balloon after flying away) that we should still enjoy seeking him with all we have. i think that we should have the child like faith that the bible talks about and just believe that Jesus is there for us, and you know what, he will be. So my challenge to you guys is, just like the kid is fascinated with the balloon, be fascinated with God and all he will do for and thru you.

126.i close my eyes and i can see a better day

125. look what i made.

124.jacked from SD

I confess that in 2010 I...
stayed single for the whole year
made out in/on a car
kissed in the snow
participated in Halloween
kissed in the rain
had your heart broken
broke someone else's heart
had a stalker
went over the minutes on your cell phone
had a good relationship with someone
someone questioned your sexual orientation
gotten pregnant
had an abortion
have a relationship with someone you'll never forget
done something you've regretted
lost faith in love
kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER
painted a picture
wrote a poem
ran a mile
shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
posted a blog
listened to music you couldn't stand
went to a sleepover
went camping
threw a surprise party
laughed till you cried
laughed till you peed in your pants
visited a foreign country
cut in a line of waiting people
told someone you were busy when you weren't
partied to celebrate the new year
cooked a disastrous meal
lost something/someone important to you
broke a promise
lied
went behind your parents back
cried over a broken heart
disappointed someone close
hid a secret
pretended to be happy
slept under the stars

kept your new years resolution
forgot your new years resolution
met someone who changed your life
met one of your idols
changed your outlook on life
sat home all day doing nothing
pretended to be sick
left the country
almost died
given up something important to you
lost something expensive
learned something new about yourself
tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
made a change in your life
found out who your true friends were
met great people
stayed up til sunrise
cried over the silliest thing
was never home on weekends
got into a car accident
had friends who were drifting away from you
had someone close to you die
had a high cell phone bill
spent most of your money on food
had a fist fight
went to the beach with your best friend
saw a celebrity
gotten sick
liked more than 5 people at the same time
became closer with a lot of people

123. plan!

ok so, this is my legit plan for this year.

i may or may not be leaving in august or september to spain. if i dont my plan is to leave jan 2012 which would be so much smarter since well, i'd be saving for a year. so alas i'll probably stick to doing that.

im excited.